assalamualaikum and hey guys. happy blogwalking heyah :)

idk how to start. but yeah. imma a bit sad now. idk why. today, dia balik dari kem. and yes, smlm aku TERstalked dia. tipulah kan kalau tak sakit hati. yes aku tahu salah aku sbb stalk. but yknw why aku stalk dia? im just too worried abt him. tapi dia ingat pun tak dekat aku. haha. im fine :)

my happiness is in my hand. i can do whatever i want to. but how,if everything i do just reminds me of him? orang mungkin nampak aku gelak,senyum tak henti. tapi dlm hati aku, tak seorang tahu apa aku rasa. aku tahan air mata aku demi kebahagiaan dia,demi kebahagiaan aku. tapi sampai bila? i loved him too much. this is all my fault. now he's gone but im still sitting here, putting all hopes against him. im tired of crying for the same reason. hurts after hurts,love never fade. boy, if u were in my place, what will you do? tell me. you never know what i feel here. you leave me when you found her. where is your 'forever' ?

and now, saya cuba jauhkan diri dari awak. awak tak perlu tahu apa yg saya rasa. sebb kesakitan dah makin sebati dlm hidup saya. awak dah bahagia sekarang. tahniah,sayang. banyak benda saya belajar dr apa yg dah jadi antara kita. mungkin sekarang saya nangis,tapi nanti saya senyum. mungkin sekarang saya sedih,tapi kelak saya bahagia. saya cuba untuk hidup tanpa awak. saya cuba kikis perasaan sayang yang ada. saya takkan berhenti tunjuk saya kuat depan kawan-kawan awak. saya tahu, satu saat nanti, saya boleh bahagia mcm awak. walaupun bukan awak disisi saya. impian kita dah hancur. saya takkan salahkan awak.

how i wish, you were still mine.
how i wish, you were beside me to hear all my problems.
how i wish, you were here to care abt me.
how i wish, you were here to fight for me.
but its all end. i know. now i need to move on. i need to show them how strong i am.

semoga kekal selamanya. Best of luck for your SPM. do make mama proud to have you. i miss them so much. and yeah, Faiz. i miss his chubby's face. oh ya,he's my  new love! haha. kiss him for me. his teeth,nawwww :') i miss a lot of things. and last, i miss you. thanks for makes me happy once. thank you for your love. sorry for all mistakes that i've done. Good Bye,555 666 888 33.